Noel's Nitemare

I'm not the kind who shows you to the exit door. I'm the kind who shows you the bathroom door, fucked you there, then show myself the way out. Yet they say I made them feel save and protected. cih. women.

I think I'm turning into one. My feelings are all out of place, dissoriented. I'm not depressed, but the problem is, I shouldn't be all happy with these. The feeling of superiority and evil. I think I'm voldemort hahahaha. Just kidding. Well, one of mithya's elder people is sick. And he might not make it. I feel the care and love mithya's has for the old man. A little coz its like so far away in the end of a long tunnel. But for me? Its..nothing. I even made mithya cranky. Angry coz she/we 're told to take care of him at hospital for days. If I'm allowed, I'll just wait at home til the old man dies or gets better. Btw, I made mithya sleep deprived for 5 days. I know, evil. Hahahaha....thou its a bitch for me when she tried to stay awake at noon. I'd prefer just sleep. Stupid girl Noel M.D

I want to fuck you till you cant walk. I want to leave all marks of bruises all over your body to marked that you've been had by me. I want by the end of it, you think I am a God and you will kneel. You are mine. You will beg. You will not live without me.

I'm pissed. Like really really pissed. Rage. Angsty. I'm frowning for 3 hours now. My blood boiled and I feel sick in the pit of my stomach. it drained me.

Ok. Maybe I just like to feel the blood rush to my face. The adrenaline. It feels soooo good.

I want to be covered in fake blood. Not real blood coz its stink. Like all red liquid all over me.

Ah lookie, A blood puddle pillow! This is so cool..I feel better already looking at some blood pictures. Not much....but it step up the mood a bit