Something I said to a friend

I've been living with fear. Now I'm making a step forward and its scary as shit. But I'm willing to get hurt again, whatever that means. Even if that means I'm exposing myself to suicidal thoughts again lol

Because if I really want to die and I'm not afraid to die, this is it. I'm stepping forward. One at a time.

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