pre-meditated
Is it considered as weird or clinically problematic that I have urges to hit these people around me that got on my nerves? Not just acquaintances or friends but also family member. It used to be walls or desks as my object to release this frustration. But slowly it feels like their faces are not a bad media to introduce my fist. Besides, maybe once everything erupted from inside, they finally realize how not normal I am?