Noel's Nitemare

I want to fuck you till you cant walk. I want to leave all marks of bruises all over your body to marked that you've been had by me. I want by the end of it, you think I am a God and you will kneel. You are mine. You will beg. You will not live without me.

I'm pissed. Like really really pissed. Rage. Angsty. I'm frowning for 3 hours now. My blood boiled and I feel sick in the pit of my stomach. it drained me.

Ok. Maybe I just like to feel the blood rush to my face. The adrenaline. It feels soooo good.

I want to be covered in fake blood. Not real blood coz its stink. Like all red liquid all over me.

Ah lookie, A blood puddle pillow! This is so cool..I feel better already looking at some blood pictures. Not much....but it step up the mood a bit

and I feel that this blog is depressing day by day. I'm sick of feeling or lack of it. I'm gonna browse some pictures I like and post it here. Like gorey and blood and fuck stuff. Yeah, I'm gonna do that

Where can I find easy women? That doesn't need any preambule or prolog or drama and just right get down on business, but NOT A HOOKER. Not by profession anyway...

Well, I'm NOT Bipolar that's for sure

OK, I'm a jerk. What's new? nothing. Just new warm boddies. Did I like it? well, it's awesome in some way. What's goin on? Where did this fire comes from? Noel.

So it took a month to feel as drowning as before. The anger came back. Noel M.D

It hurts. No matter how many times it happens, it still hurt. I wished you stopped it but it never came to that. My fault, I let my guard down. Filled with hope. And it hurts. So whatever. Noel M.D

There's only one promise I never failed to keep "I WILL make you hate me"

I dont like the nausea feeling and I want to barf all the time. And omg the fake orange smell..ewww...but I like it when i feel like im floating. And then I have no filter to what I'm saying. but at the same time, when im typing anything, I can still editted it. Thougfh sometimes I failed miserably. But mnost of the times, it doesnt changed the way I'm talking. It changed the way I talk. Everything I sees is like walking like  a news one liner on the bottom of ur TV screen. Cool.