bullshit and other shit

Bullshit. Just fucking bullshit. That cunt is trying to fuck with you. Saying you're everything and she care and all those sweet sickening shit but she doesn't blink an eye when you're hurt. Full of bullshit and you're eating all those shit up. THINK you stupid moron! People who care for you don't do this. They do not keep on trying to hurt you. They will stop. They will hurt when you're hurt. Does she seem like she's hurt when you said you're hurt? NOPE. She mocks your feeling. She said you are not making any sense. It needs to be something for her to actually mean something. It's all about her. It needs to make sense for her first. She can't respect the things that matters to you. And SHE KNOWS you're not an idiot. Yet she kept saying things as if you're the same with the idiots. This bitch is calling you dumb on your face and you will forgive her AGAIN? If that is not selfish, what is? Did you see how you keep trying to explain things and she just keep attacking you? How are you blind at this? Why are you so afraid of admitting that she doesn't care?? SHE DOESN'T CARE AND IF SHE SAY THE OTHER WAY AROUND I DON'T KNOW WHO IS MORE DELUSIONAL?! Other than that, when did she ever stop on her own choice? See? What, you want to tell yourself she actually have? Most of the time? She breaks every rule you have established for the sake of your relationship and throw it at you when it's the other way around! Is that a sign of someone who actually CARES to keep the relationship?? She keeps calling you crazy for losing your cool when she's doing the exact same shit! OH MY GOD OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES! Stop being a pussy and face the truth. She's a fucking liar and you're a coward who can't face the truth. She's using your sickness to make you feel bad about the truth. Disrespectful of the truth? LoL! If she truly cares, she will hurt too. She will not keep running her mouth. This is not the first. This is not even the 20th. Open your eyes, you dimwit. Stop being pathetic.

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September 12, 2015 at 11:34 PM
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