You think you know what Fuck My Life means

Feeling angry for days because we care and not caring at the same time. Feeling extremely sad for not being normal. And then getting angry and sad for not being able to do something as simple as concentrating on work. Trying not to cut because we feel so much pain in the chest. Trying not to ask for help because we don't want to bother anyone and thinking no one cares anyway. If they care, they can't help anyway. We know our feelings are valid and real but scold ourself for feeling it and being dramatic. Grinding teeth, making jaw tense, head hurts and stomach acid rise. So tired of these. Wishing to cry until we can fall asleep but the mind is overworking to keep us awake.

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