Noel's Nitemare

I saw a video where ISIS is blowing three people's head with shotguns in different range. I didn't feel anything. I still hate ISIS of course. I wonder about their needs to edit the video in a professional way. But I wasn't disgusted when heads are exploded in slow motions or eyeballs popping out of their sockets. These are real people. I used to feel something. I know these are wrong, I just don't feel disgusted. I didn't feel anything.

I had a weird "date" on the weekend.. but not in a bad way. There's this girl that I've known since we were kids but we never really in the same clique. Her family got money and she went to school abroad up to college (I think). I hung out with her a couple of times when she had her college vacation here. She was the definition of a "party girl". Drugs, alcohol, sex, you name it. And she wasn't the nicest person either. I think being young and loaded, maybe she thought she could do anything. I was lucky that she thought of me as somewhat an "equal" and we were friendly. I don't know, maybe at that time the stigma of young people partying and drinking was negative and we kinda had each other's back for covering our asses from our parents. Then she went back to S'pore/Aussie (I don't even know or care where she went) to continue her study and we lost touch.This was probably in 2005 or 2007. I honestly don't rememb...

Well it's back to the old days now. She's putting me in charge for most of...activities. She's perfectly fine doing the mundane stuff. Like, breathing or putting a leash on my neck when I have no shame. So I'm more than happy to take care of the rest. Which is how we're suppose to function normally anyway. It's been working well for years until adult life dictate her that being an adult means she has to be vulnerable, honest and open and blah blah blah. Fuck those crap. Look where it got us. Some says three times a charm. I'd say two were enough. I mean, right now I'm completely content watching a naked body sleeping soundlessly on the bed in the dark. A body that I'm happy to enjoy just a couple of hours ago. One of several other faces that I become more than just familiar in the past months. Faces that don't really mind that I don't ask about their work in the end of the day, or if they have eaten regularly. Well,...