sick world by noel

I'm a sick sick boy
in a sick sick world
It's not a sick sick thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
that I do do will hate you much
Hate you much

I can see the first leaf falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

I'm a sick sick boy
in a sick sick world
It's not a sick sick thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
that I do do will hate you much
Hate you much

Outside it's now raining
And bloods are pouring from my veins
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end?

I'm a sick sick boy in a sick sick world
It's not a sick sick thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
that I do do will hate you much
Hate you much

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire, ha
But when I open my eyes, you're gone

It's originally Emilia's "Big World" song. Cant help singing it this way in my head.

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