my right hand hurts

My right hand hurts. Yep, my fault. Used it too much to hit stuff. And now I have to use balm all over it cause like it or not I have to keep doing my college assignments. I don't like unpredictable pain.

I miss cutting my skin.

Now what should I do (next)? what should I do (next)? what should I do (next)?

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